it is my half birthday. i'm nearing 25, and feeling a minor sense of panic and lack and unfulfillment as i'm aging. i'm also sort of laughing at myself for this, but still can't shake the somber feeling. i'm trying to channel these energies for the best; making lists of things to set my mind to accomplishing, daydreaming and redefining my life's direction. happy almost quarter of a century, to me.
this post is part of an ongoing series i like to do every few months or so, to reflect, and to collect a snapshot of what life looks like in my current season of life.
you can find previous posts taking stock 001 here, and taking stock 002 here.
making: blog content and teaching myself how to further my brand, even out of my comfort zone (ok it's all out of my comfort zone).
cooking: chicken fajitas. not only right in this moment, but often. i've created a shortcut version that's so quick and tasty and cheap, and importantly, aidric approved. at least the chicken, not so much the vegetables.
drinking: focusing on training myself to drink my 65 oz of water daily.
reading: you are a badass at making money, sort of. it's staring at me from under my other half-read book, you are a badass. i've also had my itch to delve back into the world of ya fantasy return in the last few days.
watching: the handmaid's tale. with one or no eyes open at times, feeling like i'm going to be sick. but also reveling in a new found gratitude for the time i was born into and my rights and freedoms.
listening: to whattheeff podcast like craaaazy.
wanting: more adventure and deeper roots all at once.
looking: at houses on zillow today. something in a forest but close to the city has become my decided wish list.
playing: with dan and aidric, it is the most fun. a new definition of joy.
wasting: more than i'm comfortable with as i'm working to bring sustainability to the forefront of my mind and integrate it into my life.
wishing: for a shopping spree. i'd like a skincare line, clothes for sunny weather, a blender and other pretty kitchen items, photo prints, and fun things for baby boy.
enjoying: time off as i transition between jobs.
waiting: for d to come home (he just left this morning) and for summer adventures.
planning: a mother's day brunch!
liking: greenery and florals and neutrals and rattans. i'm swelling with an itch to nest and design home, these days.
wondering: about the truths behind some conspiracy theories and science behind alternative medicine... thanks, last night's insomnia.
loving: daniel so deeply every single day.
hoping: for a future and family and beauty and prosperity and creativity and wonder.
marveling: that i've found dan. that he is who and all that he is. that he's been there, all along.
needing: less and less.
smelling: way too much cat. i've just rescued/adopted a new kitty, and finding either she or simply the matter of having two is quite disgusting.
wearing: all the neutrals and layers, mixing flowy with fitted, trying to adapt winter outfits for the incoming heat.
following: more high energy people, ready to transform my life and looking for all the right influences.
noticing: how simple my desires really are.
learning: (trying) to learn how to be a half-hippie, and unlock my highest self.
knowing: good things are coming.
thinking: about my dreams, desires, passions, hopes, tastes.
bookmarking: self care ideas and hippie practices to investigate and implement later. but like a soon later.
giggling: with dan like schoolgirls. i love our shared sense of humor. i love that i've found a best friend in him.
feeling: deep, overwhelming gratitude, love i've never known, safe and sound and protected, bright hope.