making: invitation for aidric's 1st birthday (cry), the first of many projects i have planned for the occasion!
cooking: not at all, ever. my diet is microwave boxed lunches eaten hurriedly at the nurse's station. and mcdonald's on the way home. heallllthyyyy
drinking: so much coffee. i just discovered the revolutionary concept of pouring myself more than my one cup of morning coffee in a day, and it's probably simultaneously saving my life and ruining it.
reading: my own posts and archives so many times i memorize them, reliving my favorite moments.
watching: i just binged the first season of this is us and oh my god... that is all
listening: to oldies, the sound of my childhood, and finding that i now have a taste for it and am kind of grateful for my mom's narrow, narrow, narrow taste in music. each song i revisit is now loaded in so many happy feelings.
wanting: to travel, to put down roots, to create traditions, to invest in and grow my family. also if i could afford something other than bills for myself, even with this new flashy adult pay i'm getting, that would be nice.
looking: at ways to develop my side hustle and creativity.
playing: with aidric every day, and every day, falling more in love with being the source of his laughter.
wasting: so much it drives me crazy. lemme tell ya, if you have even a single eco-conscious bone in your body, do not go into healthcare.
wishing: for the freedom in my schedule and my finances to travel. soon.
enjoying: the turn in weather, be it temporary as it is yet. the long sun rays of dwindling summer evenings. the nostalgia the approaching autumn brings.
waiting: for the rest of my life to begin... waiting to be done waiting.
planning: my days, but not in to-do lists. i have instead begun to chart things like, 'have i felt effective? did i feel confident?' and noting my patterns so that i may repeat the good ones and replace the bad.
liking: the freedom the security of having a career provides my mind. my creativity and passion is flowing again, thanks to the headspace that has been freed by having a large chunk of my life sorted and stable.
wondering: how it is physically possible my baby has been in my arms for nearly one full year.
loving: my little boy increasingly each day. being and becoming his mother increasingly each day. myself increasingly each day.
hoping: that this time, i don't have to start over again. i finally feel i am covering ground and making progress in my pursuits of my passions. consistency, however, has long been my weakness.
marveling: how much and how quickly life can change, and yet feel and be all the same.
needing: the prettiest powder blue scrubs i've been eyeing for a year and a rose gold stethoscope and to finish my own collection of nursing equipment because there are n e v e r enough at work when you need them and also some new comfy but pretty sneaks for the long hours would be GREAT
smelling: the sweetness of the earth being drenched while in full bloom.
wearing: boots and sweaters that before this week have been lying in waiting in storage and i am l i v i n g
following: the lifelong callings of my heart, feeling hopeful about where they will lead me, enjoying the ride all the same.
noticing: i am such a flower child.
learning: i have so much life left to live. i must be patient.
knowing: that life isn't promised. i must enjoy my days, not spending every waking moment planning for tomorrow.
thinking: about one thing at a time, doing my best to teach myself to narrow my focus.
bookmarking: ideas for blogs and photos and captions and graphics to make. my mind is ripe in inspiration.
opening: up, sharing my heart. overcoming my fear of doing so.
giggling: with new gal pals at work who i am so very grateful for.
feeling: on the brink of something new, like the next chapter of my life is mere pages away.